I Didn't Stick The Landing

I'll grow into it.

A few weeks before I turned 28 I met up with Stella Blackmon and told her that my 27th year can best be described by saying I failed to stick the landing. I meant I failed to take the changes I faced in stride. The change I stressed was good stuff, but I felt like I wanted so badly to go with the flow but failed to thrive in some areas of my life. She thought there was something to that description, and so did I. In turn, I made a video about my year-long quest to understand 27. I am sad to say I blamed it for everything. I won’t go into all that, not only because the finer details don’t matter but because that’s what this video is for. This video has been on my creative to-do list for a while and I am happy to finally share it with everyone. I turned 28 last week and I feel the tension releasing. Enjoy my first anti-vlog if I can even call it that anymore.

I would like to put a disclaimer that I am sorting out what I want my world of videos to be. I am not particularly a master at executing what I want in filming or editing. But I am trying to learn and do a better job in all aspects of creating with video. I am doing my best to share things that are not exactly what I thought they should be but tell the larger story anyway.

I am saying this only because whenever I speak at my old college to a class, I say the beginning of any project is the hardest to push through. You have to sort out what works and what doesn’t. It’s a very discouraging process, but rewarding once you break through it. Thinking you can perfect an aesthetic or artistic practice in your mind is a little ridiculous. You might as well try.

This video will also live on youtube along with all my other videos. It might be better to view there for quality purposes but I thought, given that substack is doing video stuff, it might be worth trying.

Thank you for watching. In reality this feels like a From My Search Bar personal essay just shared in a different way.